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I want to be mad at you
I want to say it's all your fault
Just when I thought it was safe
To put my heart on the line
You proved me wrong.
But then the part of me
That isn't corrupted, rusted
Wants to give you the benefit of the doubt
Wants to applaud your ability
To see right through me.
You want to talk about conflict?
There it is, babe
With a big freakin bow on it.

Tucson To Sean

God, I want to get out there
I want to be in the middle of it all
I want to read volumes in the coffeehouse
I want to have Camera Obscura in my ear
I want to write a poem at every stoplight
I want to be able to think thoughts
   and not say them
I want to have something hidden
   behind my eyes
I want to read Camus and love it
I want to be working on a novel
I want to be sought out
I want to be profound
I want this to be me.

Brother Love's Traveling Salvation Show (Diamond)

Hot August night
And the leaves hanging down
And the grass on the ground smelling sweet
Move up the road
To the outside of town
And the sound of that good gospel beat
Sits a ragged tent
Where there ain't no trees
And that gospel group
Telling you and me
It's Love, Brother Love, say
Brother Love's Traveling Salvation Show (halle, halle)
Pack up the babies
And grab the old ladies
And everyone goes
'Cause everyone knows
Brother Love's show
Room gets suddenly still
And when you'd almost bet
You could hear yourself sweat, he walks in
Eyes black as coal
And when he lifts his face
Every ear in the place is on him
Starting soft and slow
Like a small earthquake
And when he lets go
Half the valley shakes
It's Love, Brother Love, say
Brother Love's Traveling Salvation Show (halle, halle)
Pack up the babies
And grab the old ladies
And everyone goes
'Cause everyone knows
'Bout Brother Love's show
(hallelujah)

Brothers! (halle hallelujah)
I say brothers! (hallelujah)
Now you got yourself
Two good hands (halle hallelujah)
And when your brother is troubled
You got to reach out your one hand for him (hallelujah)
'Cause that's what it's there for (halle hallelujah)
And when your heart is troubled
You gotta reach out your other hand (hallelujah)
Reach it out to the Man up there
'Cause that's what He's there for (halle hallelujah)
Take my hand in yours
Walk with me this day
In my heart I know
I will never stray
Halle, halle, halle, halle, halle, halle, halle halle

Love, Brother Love,
Say Brother Love's Traveling Salvation Show
Pack up the babies
And grab the old ladies
And everyone goes
I say Love, Brother Love,
Say Brother Love's Traveling Salvation Show
Pack up the babies
And grab the old ladies
And everyone goes


...this one was for PopPop

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Why are we better off apart?
Were we doomed from the beginning?
Two fiery hearts can never make a cool river
We were warm being near each other
But we fickle and fan, never dying completely
Igniting at full force on the precipice.
Curse your flame! We almost made it.
You got me believin' again
More ways than one.
Why am I better off without you?
I don't want to be.
But you're a forest fire
And this tree has turned to ash.
There's nothing left of me to burn.

White Blank Page (Mumford)

Can you lie next to her
And give her your heart
As well as your body
And can you lie next to her
And confess your love
As well as your folly
And can you kneel before the king
And say I'm clean, I'm clean
But tell me now, where was my fault
In loving you with my whole heart
Oh tell me now, where was my fault
In loving you with my whole heart
A white blank page and a swelling rage
You did not think when you sent me to the brink
You desired my attention but denied my affections
Lead me to the truth and I will follow you with my whole life 
Lead me to the truth and I will follow you with my whole life 

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I can't get enough of spending time with you
If spending time was like spending money
I'd beg, borrow, and steal for you.
I keep waiting for the other shoe to drop
For you to see me as the possessive horror I am
For you to see I'm a fraud, a bore, a challenge.
When I try to give you warning
You laugh me off
But underneath whatever you see in me
Is nothing worthy of you.

The Only Exception (Paramore)

When I was younger
I saw my daddy cry
And curse at the wind
He broke his own heart
And I watched as he tried to reassemble it
And my mama swore
That she would never let herself forget
And that was the day that I promised
I'd never sing of love
If it does not exist
But, darling, you are the only exception
But you are the only exception
Well, maybe I know somewhere
Deep in my soul
That love never lasts
And we've got to find other ways
To make it alone
Or keep a straight face
And I've always lived like this
Keeping a comfortable distance
And up until now, I had sworn to myself
That I'm content with loneliness
Because none of it was ever worth the risk
Well, you are the only exception
I've got a tight grip on reality
But I can't let go of what's in front of me here
I know you're leaving in the morning when you wake up
Leave me of some kind of proof it's not a dream, oh
You are the only exception
And I'm on my way to believing
Oh, and I'm on my way to believing 

Girl Anachronism (Palmer)

you can tell 
from the scars on my arms 

and cracks in my hips 

and the dents in my car

and the blisters on my lips

that i'm not the carefullest of girls

you can tell 
from the glass on the floor

and the strings that're breaking 

and i keep on breaking more 

and it looks like i am shaking 

but it's just the temperature

and then again 

if it were any colder i could disengage 

if i were any older i could act my age

but i don't think that youd believe me

it's not the way i'm meant to be 

it's just the way the operation made me

and you can tell 
from the state of my room 

that they let me out too soon 

and the pills that i ate 

came a couple years too late 

and i've got some issues to work through

there i go again 

pretending to be you

make-believing 

that i have a soul beneath the surface 

trying to convince you

it was accidentally on purpose

i am not so serious 
this passion is a plagiarism 

i might join your century 

but only on a rare occasion

i was taken out 

before the labor pains set in and now

behold the world's worst accident

i am the girl anachronism

and you can tell
by the red in my eyes 

and the bruises on my thighs 

and the knots in my hair 

and the bathtub full of flies 

that i'm not right now at all

there i go again 

pretending that i'll fall 

don't call the doctors 

cause they've seen it all before 

they'll say just 

let her crash and burn 

she'll learn 

the attention just encourages her

and you can tell 
from the full-body cast 

that i'm sorry that i asked 

though you did everything you could 

(like any decent person would)

but i might be catching so don't touch

you'll start believing you're immune to gravity and stuff 

don't get me wet 

because the bandages will all come off

and you can tell
from the smoke at the stake 

that the current state is critical

well it is the little things, for instance:

in the time it takes to break it she can make up ten excuses:

please excuse her for the day
it's just the way the medication makes her...

i don't necessarily believe there is a cure for this 
so i might join your century but only as a doubtful guest 

i was too precarious removed as a cesarean 

behold the worlds worst accident 

i am the girl anachronism

I Guess What I Wanted Was (Jewel)

I guess what I
wanted was
to hear
you'd stay with me always.
I guess what I
wanted was
to see
those hands vowing
never to leave my own.
I guess what
I wanted was
to know
I am not loving in vain.

In My Paradise

In my paradise, I will be enough for you
You would love me as I love you
Our love would be violently romantic
Angrily tender, every day
Until eternity was through.
In my paradise, you would be honest
And though I may cry
You would lick up my salty tears.
I may throw punches but you'd throw them
Right back, at my chin, at my chest.
In my paradise, your nightmares would end
My arms would be strong
I could be the definition of world peace
To your inner beauty queen.
In my paradise, I would be enough
And you would be enough for me
So I wouldn't have to wish
For this paradise that will never be.

Set Out Running (Case)

Want to get it all behind me

you know everything reminds me

I can't be myself without you

want to crawl down deep inside

the springs inside the mattress

where l cry my dirty secrets

cause I just can't shake this feeling

that I'm nothing in your eyes

and if I knew heartbreak was coming

I would've set out running

past the city houses

and the ditches on the highway

read between the seasons

under the bridges in valleys

'til the winds out on the prairie

whip the tears from my eyes

want to get it all behind me

you know everything reminds me

I can't be myself without you

want to crawl down deep inside

the springs inside the mattress

where I cry my dirty secrets

cause I just can't shake this feeling

that I'm nothing in your eyes

and if I knew heartbreak was coming

I would've set out running

across the muddy river

and the smokestacks on the bank

swallow that horizon

hunger beyond hunger

'til the cloudy blue pacific

took the air in my lungs

and if I knew heartbreak was coming

I would've set out running

cause I just can't shake this feeling

that I'm nothing in your eyes

I Believe In You (Williams)

I don't believe in superstars,

Organic food and foreign cars.

I don't believe the price of gold;

The certainty of growing old.

That right is right and left is wrong,

That north and south can't get along.

That east is east and west is west.

And being first is always best. 

But I believe in love.

I believe in babies.

I believe in Mom and Dad.

And I believe in you. 

Well, I don't believe that heaven waits,

For only those who congregate.

I like to think of God as love:

He's down below, He's up above.

He's watching people everywhere.

He knows who does and doesn't care.

And I'm an ordinary man,

Sometimes I wonder who I am. 

But I believe in love.

I believe in music.

I believe in magic.

And I believe in you. 

I know with all my certainty,

What's going on with you and me,

Is a good thing.

It's true, I believe in you. 

I don't believe virginity,

Is as common as it used to be.

In working days and sleeping nights,

That black is black and white is white.

That Superman and Robin Hood,

Are still alive in Hollywood.

That gasoline's in short supply,

The rising cost of getting by. 

But I believe in love.

I believe in old folks.

I believe in children.

I believe in you. 

I believe in love.

I believe in babies.

I believe in Mom and Dad.

And I believe in you.

This one was for Dad and Mom, me and Wesley and Sean, crammed in the backseat of the car, going cross-country...

The Story (Leto)

I've been thinking of everything I used to want to be

I've been thinking of everything of me of you and me

This is the story of my life

And these are the lies I have created

This is the story of my life

And these are the lies I have created

I'm in the middle of nothing and it's where I want to be

When I'm at the bottom of everything that I finally start to believe

This is the story of my life

And these are the lies I have created

This is the story of my life

And these are the lies I have created

I created

And I swear to God I'll have found myself in the end

And I swear to God I'll have found myself in the end

And I swear to God I'll have found myself in the end

In the end

And I swear to God I'll have found myself in the end

In the end

In the end

In the end

In the end

This is the story of my life

And these are the lies I have created

This is the story of my life

These are the lies I have created

This is the story of my life

These are the lies I have created

Always (Saliva)

I hear a voice say "Don't be so blind"

It's telling me all these things that you would probably hide

Am I your one and only desire

Am I the reason you breathe, or am I the reason you cry

Always... always... always... always... always... always...

I just can't live without you

I love you, I hate you, I can’t get around you

I breathe you, I taste you, I can't live without you

I just can't take anymore, this lack of solitude

I guess that I'm out the door and now I'm done with you

Done with you, done with you, done with you, done with you, done with you

I feel like you don't want me around

I guess I'll pack all my things, I guess I'll see you around

Its all been bottled up until now

As I walk out your door, all I can hear is the sound

Always... always... always... always... always... always...

I just can't live without you

I love you, I hate you, I can’t get around you

I breathe you, I taste you, I can't live without you

I just can't take anymore, this lack of solitude

I guess that I'm out the door and now I'm done with you

I love you, I hate you, I can't live without you

I left my head around your heart

Why would you tear my world apart?

Always... always... always... always...

I see the blood all over your hands

Does it make you feel, more like a man?

Was it all just a part of your plan

The pistol's shaking in my hands and all I hear is the sound

I love you, I hate you, I can’t live without you

I breathe you, I taste you, I can't live without you

I just can't take anymore, this lack of solitude

I guess that I'm out the door and now I'm done with you

I love you, I hate you, I can't live without you

I love you, I hate you, I can't live without you

I just can't take anymore, this lack of solitude

I pick myself off the floor and now I'm done with you

Always... always... always...

How's It Going To Be? (3EB)

I'm only pretty sure that I can't take anymore

Before you take a swing, I wonder what are we fighting for?

When I say out loud, "I want to get out of this,"

I wonder, is there anything I'm going to miss?

I wonder how it's going to be 

when you don't know me.

How's it going to be

when you're sure I'm not there?

How's it going to be

when there’s no one there to talk to between you and me?

'Cause I don't care

How's it going to be?

How's it going to be?

Where we used to laugh, there's a shouting match

sharp as a thumbnail scratch

A silence I can't ignore,

like the hammock by the doorway we spent time in

Swing's empty 

I don't see lightning like last fall

when it was always about to hit me

I wonder how's it going to be when it goes down

How's it going to be when your not around?

How's it going to be when you found out there was nothing

between you and me?

'Cause I don't care

How's it going to be?

And how's it going to be

when you don't know me anymore?

And how's it going to be?

I wanna get myself back in again

The soft dive of oblivion…

I wanna taste the salt of your skin

The soft dive of oblivion…oblivion

How's it going to be

when you don't know me any more?

How's it going to be?

How's it going to be?

Someday (Jones)

When I close my eyes, and go to sleep

Going to rest these bones, with wounds so deep

Lost but found, safe and sound, I'm still around

I still hear your voice, and see your face

How I loved you once, but now I'm not afraid

On my own, but not alone, hope lingers on

So can you call it love, when it's covered in pain

Can you call it faith, if it's shadowed by blame

I know what's right, to get it right, hope is still alive

Got a heart that bleeds, got a soul that aches

But I still believe in love someday

Lost but found, safe and sound, I'm still around

There will come a day, when love will carry me

Over space, we'll fly away

That's all I need someday

So can you call it love, when it's covered in pain

Can you call it faith, if its shadowed by blame

I know what's right, to get it right, hope is still alive

Someday, I will find love

Someday

Where I Stood (Higgins)

I don't know what I've done

Or if I like what I've begun

But something told me to run

And honey, you know me

It's all, or none

There were sounds in my head

A little voice is whispering

That I should go, and this should end

But then I found myself listening

Cuz I don't know, who I am, who I am without you

All I know is that I should

And I don't know if I could stand, another hand upon you,

All I know is that I should

Cuz she will love you more than I could

She who dares to stand where I stood

See I thought love was black and white

If it was wrong, or it was right

But you aint leaving without a fight and I think I am just as torn inside

Cuz I don't know, who I am, who I am without you

All I know is that I should

And I don't know if I could stand, another hand upon you,

All I know is that I should

Cuz she will love you more than I could

She who dares to stand where I stood

And I won't be far from where you are if ever you should call

You meant more to me than anyone I ever loved at all

But you taught me how to trust myself

And so I say to you...

This is what I have to do

Cuz she will love you more than I could

She who dares to stand where I stood

She who dares to stand where I stood

Bloodstream (Stateless)

Wake up

Look me in the eyes again

I need to feel your hand upon my face

Words can relay nice

They can cut you open

And then the silence surrounds you and haunts you

I think I might have inhaled you

I could feel you behind my eyes

You've gotten into my bloodstream

I could feel you floating in me

Words can relay nice

They can cut you open

And then the silence surrounds you and haunts you

I think I might have inhaled you

I could feel you behind my eyes

You've gotten into my bloodstream

I could feel you floating in me

The spaces in between

Two minds and all the places they have been

The spaces in between

I tried to put my finger on it

I tried to put my finger on it

I think I might have inhaled you

I could feel you behind my eyes

You've gotten into my bloodstream

I could feel you floating in me

I think I might have inhaled you

I could feel you behind my eyes

You've gotten into my bloodstream

I could feel you floating in me

Something I Can Never Have (Reznor)

I still recall the taste of your tears

echoing your voice just like the ringing in my ears

my favorite dreams of you still wash ashore

scraping through my head 'till I don't want to sleep anymore

you make this all go away

you make this all go away

I'm down to just one thing

and I'm starting to scare myself

you make this all go away

you make this all go away

I just want something

I just want something I can never have

you always were the one to show me how

back then I couldn't do the things that I can do now

this thing is slowly taking me apart

grey would be the color if I had a heart

come on tell me

you make this all go away

you make this all go away

I'm down to just one thing

and I'm starting to scare myself

you make this all go away

you make this all go away

I just want something

I just want something I can never have

in this place it seems like such a shame

though it all looks different now,

I know its still the same

everywhere I look you're all I see

just a fading f*cking reminder of who I used to be

come on tell me

you make this all go away

you make this all go away

I'm down to just one thing

and I'm starting to scare myself

you make this all go away

you make it all go away

I just want something

I just want something I can never have

I just want something I can never have

Never Say Never (Fray)

There's some things we don't talk about

rather do without

and just hold the smile

falling in and out of love

ashamed and proud of

together all the while

You can never say never

why we dont know when

time and time again

younger now than we were before

Don't let me go

Don't let me go

Don't let me go

Picture, you're the queen of everything

as far as the eye can see

under your command

I will be your guardian

when all is crumbling

steady your hand

You can never say never

why we dont know when

time, time and time again

younger now then we were before

Don't let me go

Don't let me go

Don't let me go

We're pulling apart and coming together again and again

We're growing apart but we pull it together, pull it together, together again

Don't let me go

Don't let me go

Don't let me go