Reruns

Every day I wake up
And I have something new to tell you:

I want to talk to you about last night's reruns
I want to tell you how I have this song stuck in my head
I want to show you pictures of the house we want to live in
I want to bemoan my idiot family and how I love them to pieces

They're not important details, no life-changing news
Because I know the life-changing stuff is not what you want to hear
You don't want to know how I'm growing into my own
You don't want to hear how I'm changing for the better

But when did we stop being able to talk about the past?
When did it become offensive for me to say "I miss you?"
Last night's reruns don't carry any more drama
Than their plot lines, which I admit, I can't even remember fully

So why don't we talk? Why don't you listen?
Why can't we go back in time, just a year ago?
When I think about my best friend, this is what I miss
You're the person I'd tell all this to, and more

I know now not to tell you
The deepest corners of my heart
You cannot be trusted, nor do you want to be
But I'd rather live a life of talking about the weather
In our different parts of the country
Than dreaming about going to work with you
To wake up and remember you hate me

Goodwin

She said
People have a tendency
To not make much of a relationship
With people they know are leaving.
I said
Well if that's how you look at things
Aren't we all on the way out?
Even that baby you hold in your arms
Is put on a countdown
The minute it emerges, covered in goo.
So tell me darling
Exactly in what circumstances
Should I make anything of this relationship?
Or were you just trying to tell me
That everybody is trying to leave ME?

Waste (Seether)

Go unnoticed
Let the freedom wash away
Losing focus
The pretense is second nature
It's a broken life that I cling to
Trying to make right
I feel dismay just like you do
I feel decayed
So find me a way to leave this wasted life
Behind me (this wasted life)
Find me a way to leave this wasted life
Behind me after all this!
Yes I see you
Surrounded by the hopeless
When they need you
You're much too good and bloated
By the hopeless life that you cling to
Try to make right
I feel disdain just like you do
I feel decayed
So find me a way to leave this wasted life
Behind me (this wasted life)
Find me a way to leave this wasted life
Behind me after all
Go away
Go away
And just leave me here
Just leave me here
Just leave me here
So find me a way to leave this wasted life
Behind me (this wasted life)
Find me a way to leave this wasted life
Behind me after all
This wasted life

In Memory (Shinedown)

Some of the ugliest things took the longest time to make
And some of the easiest habits are the hardest ones to break
And I'm not asking for value nor the pain but I am asking
For a way out of this lie
Because I can't wait for you to catch up with me
And I can't live in the past and drown myself in memories
Welcome to nowhere and finding out where it is
And fixing your problems and starting over again
You're feeding your ego with what you can see outside
And you're killing yourself for not speaking your mind
In memory
I wonder why you make believe you live your life straight through me
I cannot understand why you question me and then you lie
I will not justify your ways I cannot show you an escape
I do not know you any more, I never knew you anyway
In memory

If Looks Could Kill (Obscura)

Tell me
Tell me
Tell me where it all went wrong
Maybe I can make it better
Tell me where it all went wrong
Cause you know that you really upset her
When you act like a man who is cross with every woman he’s never had
If it’s true looks could kill then you will be the first to make me mad
Then you've got to go
Maybe you've got to go
Is this the kind of fate you could contemplate
A breakdown at my very sight
I promise hidden words of tenderness in every single line that I write
Still you act like a man who is cross with every woman he’s never had
If it’s true looks could kill and you will be the first to make me mad
Then you got to go
Maybe you’ve got to go
Tell me where it all went wrong
Tell me where it all went wrong
Maybe I can make it better
Tell me where it all went wrong
Tell me where it all went wrong
Still you act like a man who is cross with every woman he’s never had
If it’s true looks could kill and you will be the first to make me mad
Still you act like a man who is cross with every woman he’s never had
If it’s true looks could kill and you will be the first to make me mad
Then you got to go
Maybe you’ve got to go
If it true looks can kill
If it true looks can kill
If it true looks can kill
Yeah it's true looks could kill

Happier (Frenzy)

Quick kid quick, so harsh and cynical
Touches stricken, cold and clinical
What a transformation to behold
But I don't like this new, I want the old
It's not the words that make it final
You've said such things such things before to rival them
But it's how you say 'em now that's changed
Cold but sympathetic all the same
Lie to convince me that I'll be better off
Oh, you go on and I'll be happier, I'll be happier
You go on, yeah, you go on
You'll be gone and I'll be happier
Shoot me with your rubber bullets
Your finger's on the trigger, pull it
I know you want this suffering to end
So it is forgivable my friend
It's all to convince me that I'll be better off
So you go on and I'll be happier,
You go on and I'll be happier
You go on, yeah, you go on
You'll be gone and I'll be happier
Bo-bo-ba-do-bo
Bo-bo-ba-do-bo-da-da-da
Say what you mean, what you mean
Cause you'll be happier without me, without me, without me, oh
You won't convince me, that I'll be better off
So you go on and I'll be happier, I'll be happier
You go on, you go
You'll be gone, and I'll be gone
You go on and I'll be happier, you go on and I'll be happier
You go on, you go on, you go on and I'll go on and I'll be happier
You go on and I'll be happier, you go on and I'll be happier
You go on, and I'll be happier

Only (NIN)

I'm becoming less defined, as days go by
Fading away, well you might say I'm losing focus
Kind of drifting into the abstract in terms of how I see myself
Sometimes, I think I can see right through myself
Sometimes, I think I can see right through myself
Sometimes, I can see right through myself
Less concerned, about fitting into the world
Your world that is, cause it doesn't really matter anymore
No, it doesn't really matter anymore
No, it doesn't really matter anymore
None of this really matters anymore
Yes, I am alone, but then again I always was
As far back as I can tell, I think maybe it's because
Because you were never really real to begin with
I just made you up to hurt myself
I just made you up to hurt myself
Yeah, and I just made you up to hurt myself
I just made you up to hurt myself
Yeah, and I just made you up to hurt myself
And it worked
Yes it did!
There is no you, there is only me
There is no you, there is only me
There is no f*cking you, there is only me
There is no f*cking you, there is only me
Only
When, the tiniest little dot caught my eye
And it turned out to be a scab
And I had this funny feeling
Like I just knew it's something bad
I just couldn't leave it alone
I kept picking at that scab
It was a doorway trying to seal itself shut
But I climbed through
Now I'm somewhere I am not supposed to be
And I can see things I know I really shouldn't see
And now I know why now, now I know why
Things aren't as pretty on the inside
There is no you, there is only me
There is no you, there is only me
There is no f*cking you, there is only me
There is no f*cking you, there is only me
Only

The Letter (Merchant)

If I ever write this letter
The pages I could write
But I don't know where to send it
You have vanished
Heaven knows where you live
Heaven only knows
If I ever write this letter
Bitter words it would contain
Just an unrequited lover
Wishing she had never
Spoken your name
Had never known your name
But if I ever write this letter
The truth it would reveal
Knowing you brought me pleasure
How I'll often treasure
Moments that we knew
The precious, the few

Best I Ever Had (Horizon)

So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring
Nothing's quite the same now
I just say your name now
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't want me back
You're just the best I ever had
So you stole my world
Now I'm just a phony
Remembering the girl
Leaves me down and lonely
Send it in a letter
Make yourself feel better
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't need me back
You're just the best I ever had
And it may take some time to
Patch me up inside
But I can't take it so I
Run away and hide
And I may find in time that
You were always right
You're always right
So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring
What was it you wanted
Could it be I'm haunted
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
I don't want you back
You're just the best I ever had
The best I ever had
The best I ever

Zephyrus (Bloc)

Backwards, forwards but making no ground at all
Standing in the city with the clocks counting one
And your face is still wet from the fight before
As your tears hit the ground, blue flowers spring from them
Baby, I'm ashamed of the things I put you through
Baby, I'm ashamed of the man I was for you
And all you said in your quietest voice
Was "I needed you as much as they do"
How fast must we run before we can just take off in flight?
How far must we run before they do not recognise us?
So let's take this from the start, you'll be me and I'll be you
And let's try not to complain about your smoking
And my distant heart
And my distant heart
And my distant heart
And all you said in your quietest voice
Was "I needed you as much as they do"
(Too many mirrors in this house)
(And I don't like to see myself like this)
(I'm becoming the man I used to be I guess)
(These walls could tell you a thing or two)
(Things that you really don't want to know)
(Lend me your eyes for your point of view)
(Lend me your feet and I'll stand by you)
And all you said in your quietest voice
Was "I needed you as much as they do"


Stolen from Matt, because when I see a line that touches my heart, I add it to my collection of lines on this blog and snort them like cocaine to try and make my brain whole

Faint (Linkin)

I am a little bit of loneliness, a little bit of disregard
Handful of complaints but I can't help the fact
That everybody can see these scars
I am what I want you to want, what I want you to feel
But it's like no matter what I do, I can't convince you
To just believe this is real
So I, let go watching you turn your back like you always do
Face away and pretend that I'm not
But I'll be here cause you're all that I've got
I can't feel the way I did before
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
Time won't heal this damage anymore
Don't turn your back on me I won't be ignored
I am, a little bit insecure, a little unconfident
Cuz you don't understand I do what I can
Sometimes I don't make sense
I am, what you never wanna say, but I've never had a doubt
It's like no matter what I do I can't convince you for once just to hear me out
So I, let go watching you turn your back like you always do
You face away and pretend that I'm not
But I'll be here cause you're all that I've got
I can't feel the way I did before
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
Time won't heal this damage anymore
Don't turn your back on me I won't be ignored
Hear me out now
You're gonna listen to me like it or not
Right now, hear me out now
You're gonna listen to me like it or not
Right now
I can't feel the way I did before
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
I can't feel the way I did before
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
Time won't heal this damage anymore
Don't turn your back on me I won't be ignored
I can't feel
Don't turn your back on me I won't be ignored
Time won't tell
Don't turn your back on me I won't be ignored 

Runaway (Linkin)

Graffiti decorations
Under the sky of dust
A constant wave of tension
On top of broken trust
The lessons that you taught me
I learned were never true
Now I find myself in question
They point the finger at me again
Guilty by association
You point the finger at me again
I wanna run away
Never say goodbye
I wanna know the truth
Instead of wondering why
I wanna know the answers
No more lies
I wanna shut the door
And open up my mind
Paper bags and angry voices
Under a sky of dust
Another wave of tension
Has more than filled me up
All my talk of taking action
These words were never true
I’m gonna run away, and never say goodbye
Gonna run away
I’m gonna run away and never wonder why
Gonna run away
I’m gonna run away and open up my mind
Gonna run away
I wanna run away and open up my mind

A Bad Dream (Keane)

Why do I have to fly
over every town up and down the line?
I'll die in the clouds above
and you that I defend, I do not love.
I wake up, it's a bad dream,
No one on my side,
I was fighting
But I just feel too tired
to be fighting,
guess I'm not the fighting kind.
Where will I meet my fate?
Baby I'm a man, I was born to hate.
And when will I meet my end?
In a better time you could be my friend.
I wake up, it's a bad dream,
No one on my side,
I was fighting
But I just feel too tired
to be fighting,
guess I'm not the fighting kind.
Wouldn't mind it
if you were by my side
But you're long gone,
yeah you're long gone now.
Where do we go?
I don't even know,
My strange old face,
And I'm thinking about those days,
And I'm thinking about those days.
I wake up, it's a bad dream,
No one on my side,
I was fighting
But I just feel too tired
to be fighting,
guess I'm not the fighting kind.
Wouldn't mind it
if you were by my side
But you're long gone,
yeah you're long gone now.

Beth Orton meets my childhood

It can be said
"We only hurt the ones we love,"
And that is true.
Others may harm us
But if they don't love us
Or we them
'Tis but a scratch, a sting.
But those we love
If they cause us harm
'Tis a mortal blow,
Sometimes a fatal wound.
So while I may be able
To absolve Little Miss Chatterbox
Or ignore Little Miss Nosy
Or laugh at Little Miss Bossy
It is Little Miss Sunshine
Who breaks my heart
Into a million pieces
Because she was the one
Who had brought Light
Into my world, i.e. Love.
And when she hurt me
T'was a mortal wound
A fatal blow
She didn't need a reason.

Pansies

There is so much more to life than you
Though you cloud my every thought
Manipulate my every move.
You know how to say just the right thing
To everyone else
You make it abundantly clear whom you love
I am stuck over here in freak land
In a torture room of my own making
I'd like to ask someone for help
To stop loving a person instantaneously
But you are the supreme expert on the subject
And we're not talking.
We're both at this point
Where we have nothing to lose
Because I am incapable of hurting you
The way you have hurt me
And you're incapable of feeling feelings
You self-centered shrew.
Even though I hate you
I wish I could be just like you
And forget I ever knew you
Like you do to me.
But oh if only you read my words
And came running back to me!
Because really, I haven't tortured myself enough
And I would so love a Round 2 with you
Gawd, I see how pathetic I am
You've always known it though
That's just what makes you so freakin great.

Swallowed (Bush)

Warm sun, feed me up and I'm leery loaded up
Loathing for a change
And I slip some boil away
Swallowed followed, heavy about everything
But my love
Swallowed sorrowed
I'm with everyone and yet not just wanted
to be myself
hey you said that you would love to try some
hey you said you would love to die some
in the middle of a worm on a fish hook
you're the wave you're the wave you're the wave
Swallowed borrowed
Heavy about everything
But my love
Swallowed hollowed
Sharp about everyone
But yourself
Swallowed oh no
I'm with every one and yet not
I'm with everyone and you're not
I'm on everyone and yet
Piss on self-esteem
Forward Busted knee
Sick head
Blackened lungs
And I'm a simple selfish son
Swallowed followed
Swallowed oh no
I'm with everyone and yet not
Got to get away from here
I miss the one that I love a lot
I miss the one that I love a lot 

Lost (Korn)

Why can't I decide why my feelings I hide?
Always screwing with my mind, a thorn in my spine.
Oh sure, it feels fine, wasting all our time.
In the back of my mind, a thorn in my spine.
Wait! See it before my eyes.
Why? Do I turn away?
Looking all the time, at your face so blind.
Feeling uptight, always the same fight.
Hey man now decide, go ahead take your time.
Kissing all the time, that thorn in my spine.
Wait! You cannot see inside
Why! Play yourself out that way
Why! You and me always hate
Wait! Weren't you my friend?
Pain, Rage and Fear I feel!
Hey man look inside, now you need your own life.
Remember me guy? That thorn in your spine.
Waiting all the time, I'm doing mighty fine.
Remember me guy? The thorn in your spine.
Wait! You cannot see inside.
Why? Play yourself out that way
Why? You and me always hate
Wait! Weren't you my friend
Wait! You were my friend.

Untitled

Too much noise inside my brain
Can't think, can't blink
Just when I think I've figured out the answers
My heart starts bleeding again
No tourniquet in sight; only more knives.
I wish you weren't left out of reach
But there are tears whether you're near or far.
I've brought this on myself?  No.
You have all brought it on me against my will
All I have ever wanted was happiness, contentment
Lo and behold I've found it
And then you all have to rip it away again.
How to pass the hours each day
That's all we need to know
If we can't figure that out now
What makes us think
We'll figure it out in the next life?
Can there be no good without evil?
You're the cause of darkness, in my soul
Otherwise I am a sunrise
Full of potential without you.

Welcome to the Black Parade (MCR)

When I was a young boy,
My father took me into the city
To see a marching band.
He said, "Son when you grow up,
would you be the saviour of the broken,
the beaten and the damned?"
He said "Will you defeat them,
your demons, and all the non-believers,
the plans that they have made?
Because one day I'll leave you,
A phantom to lead you in the summer,
To join The Black Parade."
When I was a young boy,
My father took me into the city
To see a marching band.
He said, "Son when you grow up,
would you be the saviour of the broken,
the beaten and the damned?"
Sometimes I get the feeling she's watching over me.
And other times I feel like I should go.
And through it all, the rise and fall, the bodies in the streets.
And when you're gone we want you all to know.
We'll carry on,
We'll carry on
And though you're dead and gone believe me
Your memory will carry on
We'll carry on
And in my heart I can't contain it
The anthem won't explain it.
A world that sends you reeling from decimated dreams
Your misery and hate will kill us all.
So paint it black and take it back
Let's shout it loud and clear
Defiant to the end we hear the call
To carry on
We'll carry on
And though you're dead and gone believe me
Your memory will carry on
We'll carry on
And though you're broken and defeated
Your weary widow marches
On and on we carry through the fears
Ooh oh ohhhh
Disappointed faces of your peers
Ooh oh ohhhh
Take a look at me cause I could not care at all
Do or die, you'll never make me
Because the world will never take my heart
Go and try, you'll never break me
We want it all, we wanna play this part
I won't explain or say I'm sorry
I'm unashamed, I'm gonna show my scar
Give a cheer for all the broken
Listen here, because it's who we are
I'm just a man, I'm not a hero
Just a boy, who had to sing this song
I'm just a man, I'm not a hero
I! don't! care!
We'll carry on
We'll carry on
And though you're dead and gone believe me
Your memory will carry on
We'll carry on
And though you're broken and defeated
Your weary widow marches on
Do or die, you'll never make me
Because the world will never take my heart
Go and try, you'll never break me
We want it all, we wanna play this part (We'll carry on)
Do or die, you'll never make me (We'll carry on)
Because the world will never take my heart (We'll carry on)
Go and try, you'll never break me (We'll carry)
We want it all, we wanna play this part (We'll carry on)

We Used To Talk (Stranger)

We used to talk
Enough to fill an ocean full of sailors 
who were going to some undiscovered place
And we talked
about a storm that's growing
but we'd survive it knowing 
we'd keep each other safe
Like the waves that wash away the footprints on the shore
We used to talk a lot
but we don't talk much anymore
We used to talk
enough to fill a million books
with page after page of inspirational thought
And we talked
about all the scenarios 
where we could be the heroes
avenging evil plots
It's what we don't expect and what we choose to ignore
We used to talk a lot
but we don't talk much anymore
How long
can these conversations go on
before the inspiration is gone?
Even Atlantis sunk into the ocean floor
We used to talk a lot
but we don't talk much anymore
We used to talk
how in a hundred years
we would still be sitting here
just chattering our bones
But we're not
I'm sitting here in silence 
and though I have tried
it is hard to talk alone... 

Savior (Rise)

It kills me not to know this but I've all but just forgotten
What the color of her eyes were 
and her scars or how she got them
As the telling signs of age rain down a single tear is dropping
Through the valleys of an aging face that this world has forgotten
There is no reconciliation that will put me in my place
And there is no time like the present to drink these draining seconds
But seldom do these words ring true when I'm constantly failing you
Like walls that we just can't break through until we disappear
So tell me now
If this ain't love then how do we get out?
cause' I don't know
That's when she said I don't hate you boy
I just want to save you while there's still something left to save
That's when I told her I love you girl
But I'm not the answer for the questions that you still have
But the day pressed on like crushing weights
For no man does it ever wait
Like memories of dying days
That deafen us like hurricanes
Bathed in flames we held the brand
Uncurled the fingers in your hand
Pressed into the flesh like sand
Now do you understand?
So tell me now
If this ain't love then how do we get out?
cause' I don't know
That's when she said I don't hate you boy
I just want to save you while there's still something left to save
That's when I told her I love you girl
But I'm not the answer for the questions that you still have
1000 miles away
There's nothing left to say
But so much left that I don't know
We never had a choice
This world is too much noise
It takes me under
It takes me under once again
I don't hate you
I don't hate you
So tell me now
If this ain't love then how do we get out?
cause' I don't know
That's when she said I don't hate you boy
I just want to save you while there's still something left to save
That's when I told her I love you girl
But I'm not the answer for the questions that you still have
I don't hate you
I don't hate you, no

Random Beach Verses Part Tres

Last time I was on this beach
You broke my heart
I drank wine and went
Antiquing, swearing
To never give a damn about you
   again
But you have made a fool of me
   again
Already history is repeating?
Already it's time for another feeding?

Random Beach Verses Part Deux

The last time I was here there was a north wind
Is that symbolic for the jet stream
Carrying thoughts of you down to me
Why can't we be who we really are
Or at least stop trying to be
I guess the distance makes storytellers of us both
Your north wind is prickly on my pores
Has a cleansing effect on my thoughts
A cold shower on a hot day

The longer I stay here
The wind has changed

Everyone here not from Britain
Is from New Amsterdam

Random Beach Verses Part I

Every creation myth needs a devil
"And it's the devil I love.
That's as funny as real love
And that's as real as true love."

All we want is someone to grow old with
Someone to do all the stuff with
We deceive ourselves into thinking
That we really want what we can't have
Sometimes we get it
We're more alone than before

That other-sex version of ourselves
In the living room mirror
Is what our heart wants
Though the groin tries to lie.

The devil I love is the
Story woven by the groin
Up the bloodstream to the brain.
The devil of creation
Has a name but is nameless
It is just what we want
But can't have.

Outro With Bees (Case)

How's hope feeling today
Tired and sick of this place
Red wine is fast
At the lip of your glass
Saying I'm going to ruin
Everything
Everything
So its better my sweet
That we hover like bees
'Cause there's no sure footing
No love, I believe 

Home (Sharpe)

Her:

Alabama, Arkansas

I do love my ma and pa

Not that way that I do love you

Him:

Holy moly, me oh my

You're the apple of my eye

Girl, I've never loved no one like you

Her:

Man, oh man, you're my best friend

I scream it to the nothingness

There ain't nothing that I need

Him:

Well, hot and heavy, pumpkin pie

Chocolate candy, Jesus Christ

Ain't nothing please me more than you

Both:

Ah, home

Let me go home

Home is wherever I'm with you

Ah, home

Let me go home

Home is wherever I'm with you

La, la, la, la, take me home

Mother, I'm coming home

Him:

I'll follow you into the park

Through the jungle, through the dark

Girl, I never loved no one like you

Her:

Moats and boats and waterfalls

Alleyways and pay phone calls

I've been everywhere with you

Him:

That's true

Laugh until we think we'll die

Barefoot on a summer night

Never could be sweeter than with you

Her:

And in the streets you run a-free

Like it's only you and me

Geez, you're something to see

Both:

Ah, home

Let me go home

Home is wherever I'm with you

Ah, home

Let me go home

Home is wherever I'm with you

La, la, la, la, take me home

Daddy, I'm coming home

(talking)

Him: Jade

Her: Alexander

Him: Do you remember that day you fell out of my window?

Her: I sure do, you came jumping out after me

Him: Well, you fell on the concrete, nearly broke your ass, you were bleeding all over the place and I rushed you out to the hospital, you remember that?

Her: Yes, I do

Him: Well, there's something I never told you about that night

Her: What didn't you tell me?

Him: While you were sitting in the backseat smoking a cigarette you thought was going to be your last, I was falling deep, deeply in love with you, and I never told you until just now

Both:

Ah, home

Let me go home

Home is wherever I'm with you

Ah, home

Let me go home

Home is where I'm alone with you

Him:

Home

Let me come home

Home is wherever I'm with you

Her:

Ah, home

Yes I am home

Home is when I'm alone with you

Her:

Alabama, Arkansas

I do love my ma and pa

Moats and boats and waterfalls

Alleyways and pay phone calls

Both:

Ah, home

Let me go home

Home is wherever I'm with you

Ah, home

Let me go home

Home is where I'm alone with you     

...for my valentine

Head Over Feet (Morissette)

I had no choice but to hear you

You stated your case time and again

I thought about it

You treat me like I'm a princess

I'm not used to liking that

You ask how my day was

You've already won me over in spite of me

Don't be alarmed if I fall head over feet

And don't be surprised if I love you for all that you are

I couldn't help it

It's all your fault

Your love is thick and it swallowed me whole

You're so much braver than I gave you credit for

That's not lip service

You've already won me over in spite of me

Don't be alarmed if I fall head over feet

And don't be surprised if I love you for all that you are

I couldn't help it

It's all your fault

You are the bearer of unconditional things

You held your breath and the door for me

Thanks for your patience

You're the best listener that I've ever met

You're my best friend

Best friend with benefits

What took me so long

I've never felt this healthy before

I've never wanted something rational

I am aware now

I am aware now

You've already won me over in spite of me

Don't be alarmed if I fall head over feet

And don't be surprised if I love you for all that you are

I couldn't help it

It's all your fault 

...for my valentine         

Pale September (Apple)

Pale September, I wore the time like a dress that year

The autumn days swung soft around me, like cotton on my skin

But as the embers of the summer lost their breath and disappeared

My heart went cold and only hollow rhythms resounded from within

But then he rose, brilliant as the moon in full

And sank in the burrows of my keep

And all my armor falling down, in a pile at my feet

And my winter giving way to warm, as I'm singing him to sleep

He goes along just as a water lily

Gentle on the surface of his thoughts his body floats

Unweighed down by passion or intensity

Yet unaware of the depth upon which he coasts

And he finds a home in me

For what misfortune sows, he knows my touch will reap

And all my armor falling down, in a pile at my feet

And my winter giving way to warm, as I'm singing him to sleep

All my armor falling down, in a pile at my feet

And my winter giving way to warm, as I'm singing him to sleep

All my armor falling down, in a pile at my feet

And my winter giving way to warm, as I'm singing him to sleep

...for my valentine

Sanctified (Reznor)

it's still getting worse after everything i tried
what if i found a way to wash it all aside
what if she touches with those fingertips
as the words spill out like fire from her lips
if she says come inside i'll come inside for her
if she says give it all i'll give everything to her
i am justified
i am purified
i am sanctified
inside you
heaven's just a rumor she'll dispel
as she walks me through the nicest parts of hell
i still dream of lips i never should have never kissed
well she knows exactly what i can't resist
if she says come inside i'll come inside for her
if she says give it all i'll give everything to her
i am justified
i am purified
i am sanctified
inside you
i'm just caught up in another of her spells
she's turning me into someone else
everyday i hope and pray this will end
but when i can i do it all again
if she says come inside i'll come inside for her
if she says give it all i'll give everything to her
i am justified
i am purified
i am sanctified
inside you
as surely as the blades course is run
maybe my kingdom's finally come

The Kill (Leto)

What if I wanted to break
Laugh it all off in your face
What would you do?
What if I fell to the floor?
Couldn't take this anymore
What would you do?
Come break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you
What if I wanted to fight
Beg for the rest of my life
What would you do?
You say you wanted more
What are you waiting for?
I'm not running from you
Come break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you
Look in my eyes
You're killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you
I tried to be someone else
But nothing seemed to change
I know now, this is who I really am inside
Finally found myself
Fighting for a chance
I know now, this is who I really am
Come break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you
Look in my eyes
You're killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you
Come break me down
Break me down
Break me down
What if I wanted to break?

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I want to be mad at you
I want to say it's all your fault
Just when I thought it was safe
To put my heart on the line
You proved me wrong.
But then the part of me
That isn't corrupted, rusted
Wants to give you the benefit of the doubt
Wants to applaud your ability
To see right through me.
You want to talk about conflict?
There it is, babe
With a big freakin bow on it.

Tucson To Sean

God, I want to get out there
I want to be in the middle of it all
I want to read volumes in the coffeehouse
I want to have Camera Obscura in my ear
I want to write a poem at every stoplight
I want to be able to think thoughts
   and not say them
I want to have something hidden
   behind my eyes
I want to read Camus and love it
I want to be working on a novel
I want to be sought out
I want to be profound
I want this to be me.

Brother Love's Traveling Salvation Show (Diamond)

Hot August night
And the leaves hanging down
And the grass on the ground smelling sweet
Move up the road
To the outside of town
And the sound of that good gospel beat
Sits a ragged tent
Where there ain't no trees
And that gospel group
Telling you and me
It's Love, Brother Love, say
Brother Love's Traveling Salvation Show (halle, halle)
Pack up the babies
And grab the old ladies
And everyone goes
'Cause everyone knows
Brother Love's show
Room gets suddenly still
And when you'd almost bet
You could hear yourself sweat, he walks in
Eyes black as coal
And when he lifts his face
Every ear in the place is on him
Starting soft and slow
Like a small earthquake
And when he lets go
Half the valley shakes
It's Love, Brother Love, say
Brother Love's Traveling Salvation Show (halle, halle)
Pack up the babies
And grab the old ladies
And everyone goes
'Cause everyone knows
'Bout Brother Love's show
(hallelujah)

Brothers! (halle hallelujah)
I say brothers! (hallelujah)
Now you got yourself
Two good hands (halle hallelujah)
And when your brother is troubled
You got to reach out your one hand for him (hallelujah)
'Cause that's what it's there for (halle hallelujah)
And when your heart is troubled
You gotta reach out your other hand (hallelujah)
Reach it out to the Man up there
'Cause that's what He's there for (halle hallelujah)
Take my hand in yours
Walk with me this day
In my heart I know
I will never stray
Halle, halle, halle, halle, halle, halle, halle halle

Love, Brother Love,
Say Brother Love's Traveling Salvation Show
Pack up the babies
And grab the old ladies
And everyone goes
I say Love, Brother Love,
Say Brother Love's Traveling Salvation Show
Pack up the babies
And grab the old ladies
And everyone goes


...this one was for PopPop

Untitled

Why are we better off apart?
Were we doomed from the beginning?
Two fiery hearts can never make a cool river
We were warm being near each other
But we fickle and fan, never dying completely
Igniting at full force on the precipice.
Curse your flame! We almost made it.
You got me believin' again
More ways than one.
Why am I better off without you?
I don't want to be.
But you're a forest fire
And this tree has turned to ash.
There's nothing left of me to burn.

White Blank Page (Mumford)

Can you lie next to her
And give her your heart
As well as your body
And can you lie next to her
And confess your love
As well as your folly
And can you kneel before the king
And say I'm clean, I'm clean
But tell me now, where was my fault
In loving you with my whole heart
Oh tell me now, where was my fault
In loving you with my whole heart
A white blank page and a swelling rage
You did not think when you sent me to the brink
You desired my attention but denied my affections
Lead me to the truth and I will follow you with my whole life 
Lead me to the truth and I will follow you with my whole life 

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I can't get enough of spending time with you
If spending time was like spending money
I'd beg, borrow, and steal for you.
I keep waiting for the other shoe to drop
For you to see me as the possessive horror I am
For you to see I'm a fraud, a bore, a challenge.
When I try to give you warning
You laugh me off
But underneath whatever you see in me
Is nothing worthy of you.

The Only Exception (Paramore)

When I was younger
I saw my daddy cry
And curse at the wind
He broke his own heart
And I watched as he tried to reassemble it
And my mama swore
That she would never let herself forget
And that was the day that I promised
I'd never sing of love
If it does not exist
But, darling, you are the only exception
But you are the only exception
Well, maybe I know somewhere
Deep in my soul
That love never lasts
And we've got to find other ways
To make it alone
Or keep a straight face
And I've always lived like this
Keeping a comfortable distance
And up until now, I had sworn to myself
That I'm content with loneliness
Because none of it was ever worth the risk
Well, you are the only exception
I've got a tight grip on reality
But I can't let go of what's in front of me here
I know you're leaving in the morning when you wake up
Leave me of some kind of proof it's not a dream, oh
You are the only exception
And I'm on my way to believing
Oh, and I'm on my way to believing 

Girl Anachronism (Palmer)

you can tell 
from the scars on my arms 

and cracks in my hips 

and the dents in my car

and the blisters on my lips

that i'm not the carefullest of girls

you can tell 
from the glass on the floor

and the strings that're breaking 

and i keep on breaking more 

and it looks like i am shaking 

but it's just the temperature

and then again 

if it were any colder i could disengage 

if i were any older i could act my age

but i don't think that youd believe me

it's not the way i'm meant to be 

it's just the way the operation made me

and you can tell 
from the state of my room 

that they let me out too soon 

and the pills that i ate 

came a couple years too late 

and i've got some issues to work through

there i go again 

pretending to be you

make-believing 

that i have a soul beneath the surface 

trying to convince you

it was accidentally on purpose

i am not so serious 
this passion is a plagiarism 

i might join your century 

but only on a rare occasion

i was taken out 

before the labor pains set in and now

behold the world's worst accident

i am the girl anachronism

and you can tell
by the red in my eyes 

and the bruises on my thighs 

and the knots in my hair 

and the bathtub full of flies 

that i'm not right now at all

there i go again 

pretending that i'll fall 

don't call the doctors 

cause they've seen it all before 

they'll say just 

let her crash and burn 

she'll learn 

the attention just encourages her

and you can tell 
from the full-body cast 

that i'm sorry that i asked 

though you did everything you could 

(like any decent person would)

but i might be catching so don't touch

you'll start believing you're immune to gravity and stuff 

don't get me wet 

because the bandages will all come off

and you can tell
from the smoke at the stake 

that the current state is critical

well it is the little things, for instance:

in the time it takes to break it she can make up ten excuses:

please excuse her for the day
it's just the way the medication makes her...

i don't necessarily believe there is a cure for this 
so i might join your century but only as a doubtful guest 

i was too precarious removed as a cesarean 

behold the worlds worst accident 

i am the girl anachronism

I Guess What I Wanted Was (Jewel)

I guess what I
wanted was
to hear
you'd stay with me always.
I guess what I
wanted was
to see
those hands vowing
never to leave my own.
I guess what
I wanted was
to know
I am not loving in vain.

In My Paradise

In my paradise, I will be enough for you
You would love me as I love you
Our love would be violently romantic
Angrily tender, every day
Until eternity was through.
In my paradise, you would be honest
And though I may cry
You would lick up my salty tears.
I may throw punches but you'd throw them
Right back, at my chin, at my chest.
In my paradise, your nightmares would end
My arms would be strong
I could be the definition of world peace
To your inner beauty queen.
In my paradise, I would be enough
And you would be enough for me
So I wouldn't have to wish
For this paradise that will never be.

Set Out Running (Case)

Want to get it all behind me

you know everything reminds me

I can't be myself without you

want to crawl down deep inside

the springs inside the mattress

where l cry my dirty secrets

cause I just can't shake this feeling

that I'm nothing in your eyes

and if I knew heartbreak was coming

I would've set out running

past the city houses

and the ditches on the highway

read between the seasons

under the bridges in valleys

'til the winds out on the prairie

whip the tears from my eyes

want to get it all behind me

you know everything reminds me

I can't be myself without you

want to crawl down deep inside

the springs inside the mattress

where I cry my dirty secrets

cause I just can't shake this feeling

that I'm nothing in your eyes

and if I knew heartbreak was coming

I would've set out running

across the muddy river

and the smokestacks on the bank

swallow that horizon

hunger beyond hunger

'til the cloudy blue pacific

took the air in my lungs

and if I knew heartbreak was coming

I would've set out running

cause I just can't shake this feeling

that I'm nothing in your eyes