How to Fight Loneliness (Wilco)

How to fight loneliness
Smile all the time
Shine you teeth til meaningless
Sharpen them with lies
And whatevers going down
Will follow you around
That's how you fight loneliness
You laugh at every joke
Drag your blanket blindly
Fill your heart with smoke
And the first thing that you want
Will be the last thing you ever need
That's how you fight it
Just smile all the time
Just smile all the time
Just smile all the time
Just smile all the time

Waterford

Surrounded by these people I thought were my friends

Peddling their goods, displaying what price their heart is for sale:

Some of the rich sold cheap plastic jewelry

Some of the old were bungee-jumping inside a mall.

Out of nowhere you showed up

We were partnered, not like now where I

Haven’t seen you in a year

I was surprised it was you this time

You must be the understudy

To my usual cast.

The timeline is hazy

But you were upset

You thought I was hiding it

Among this group of friends

You started sobbing

I was baffled and ashamed.

You wanted me to take your hand.

I seized your milky white palm in mine

And walked through the crowd as if I didn’t know these people

The way I walk through the grocery store;

Anonymity at its best.

Perhaps it’s not what you want to hear

But I had confidence,

I wasn’t going to let them break us, you.

Times appointed for delivering

Your body with our missing components

Arose and we were rushed so

The people made no difference then.

They really don’t make a difference now

And maybe the point of it all was that:

To show me who I have been

Hiding in plain sight.

Maybe it wasn’t you. Maybe it could be him

Or her

Or just me.

I was never going to hang my head in shame

What have I done to feel so worthy of death?

Times in the past I have welcomed its end

But now I have a reason to get up in the morning

If to do nothing more

Than to write about my dreams.

Elsewhere (McLachlan)

I love the time and in between
The calm inside me
In the space where I can breathe
I believe there is a
Distance I have wandered
To touch upon the years of
Reaching out and reaching in
Holding out holding in
I believe
This is heaven to no one else but me
And I’ll defend it as long as I can be
Left here to linger in silence
If I choose to
Would you try to understand
I know this love is passing time
Passing through like liquid
I am drunk in my desire...
But I love the way you smile at me
I love the way your hands reach out and hold me near...
I believe...
I believe
This is heaven to no one else but me
And I’ll defend it as long as
I can be left here to linger in silence
If I choose to
Would you try to understand
Oh the quiet child awaits the day when she can break free
The mold that clings like desperation
Mother can’t you see I’ve got
To live my life the way I feel is right for me
Might not be right for you but it’s right for me...
I believe...
I believe
This is heaven to no one else but me
And I’ll defend it as long as
I can be left here to linger in silence
If I choose to
Would you try to understand it
I would like to linger here in silence
If I choose to
Would you understand it
Would you try to understand... 

Northern Lad (Amos)

Had a northern lad, well not exactly had.
He moved like the sunset, God who painted that.
First he loved my accent. How his knees could bend.
I thought we'd be okay, me and my molasses.
But I feel something is wrong? But I feel this cake just isn't done.
And don't say that you don't.
And if you could see me now, said if you could see me now.
Girls you've got to know when it's time to turn the page.
Or when you're only wet because of all the rain.
Because of... because of... all the rain, because of...
He don't show much these days, it's gets so f*cking cold.
I loved his secret places but I can't go anymore.
"You change like sugar cane," says my northern lad.
I guess you go too far when pianos try to be guitars.
I feel the West in you, but I, I feel it falling apart too.
And don't say that you don't.
And if you could see me now... Said if you could see me now.
Girls you've got to know when it's time to turn the page.
Or when you're only wet because of all the rain.
Or when you're only wet because of all the rain.
Because of, because of... of the rain, because of...
Because of... of all the rain, because of... the... rain... 

We Were At A Cajun Restaurant

We were at a Cajun restaurant

A whole group of us

We parked our cars in grassy fields

But it was raining, torrential

There started to be mudslides

And I worried how we would leave

Rich people landed their helicopters

They wouldn’t have the mud to worry about

This was a very popular Cajun restaurant.

I was very thirsty, and behind me were sitting my parents

They had a pitcher of water, so I got up to get some

Then I had to pee, so I went to the back of the restaurant

To find the bathroom.

It turns out it was at the front of the restaurant.

I don’t remember if I made it there

Because then you grabbed my hand.

You knew I had been ignoring you all night

Avoiding you, my Mol.

I was trying to be strong at this Cajun restaurant

And not let all my demons follow me here

But there you were

And we were saying goodbye again.

That was when I first said I didn’t know if I’d ever see you again

You couldn’t give me a straight answer.

We hugged profusely, warm and tight.

Parting ways, I was heading to the bar for

Two shots of Jameson

But instead I went outside

Through the front doors of the Cajun restaurant.

Maybe I was going to find my car

In the field, see if I could just leave this place already

But there you were, sitting with all your other friends

They waved me over, but the last thing I wanted to be around

Was people, other than you.

You came up to me and said,

“KMo said you should hate the player, not the game

And she did a sassy snap of her fingers.”

All your friends walked past us,

Their number must have been called

To go eat inside the Cajun restaurant.

I said I hated the game, but I was in love with the player.

I avoided making eye contact, so you grabbed my face.

You said “close your eyes.”

You pressed your lips to mine.

Before I even realized what was happening.

They were dry, chapped, rough.

I touched my tongue to them

Just to provide lubrication

I wasn’t certain you wanted me inside your mouth.

I decided to try to make this a kiss to remember

For you

For as many nanoseconds as you were letting me

Your lips were so dry

Not used to passion, love, yearning, urgency.

You gave me the one gift I’ve never had.

We parted after not nearly enough time

And I repeated, “When will I see you again?”

You didn’t have an answer.

We hugged and then you walked away.

You had gone above and beyond, you thought.

But to me, you sliced my heart wide open.

I already thought it impossible to forget you before then.

I don’t keep you trapped in my basement under the earth

With closure unfulfilled

I wasn’t the one who planted the idea in your brain

Quite the opposite, baby.

You’ve got me trapped down here

Closer to the equator than you’ve ever been

Your dry, chapped, Northern lips

Haunt my dreams, not the other way around

And I wake up

Surrounded by the bars of my prison

Asking over and over,

When will I see you again?

Reruns

Every day I wake up
And I have something new to tell you:

I want to talk to you about last night's reruns
I want to tell you how I have this song stuck in my head
I want to show you pictures of the house we want to live in
I want to bemoan my idiot family and how I love them to pieces

They're not important details, no life-changing news
Because I know the life-changing stuff is not what you want to hear
You don't want to know how I'm growing into my own
You don't want to hear how I'm changing for the better

But when did we stop being able to talk about the past?
When did it become offensive for me to say "I miss you?"
Last night's reruns don't carry any more drama
Than their plot lines, which I admit, I can't even remember fully

So why don't we talk? Why don't you listen?
Why can't we go back in time, just a year ago?
When I think about my best friend, this is what I miss
You're the person I'd tell all this to, and more

I know now not to tell you
The deepest corners of my heart
You cannot be trusted, nor do you want to be
But I'd rather live a life of talking about the weather
In our different parts of the country
Than dreaming about going to work with you
To wake up and remember you hate me

Goodwin

She said
People have a tendency
To not make much of a relationship
With people they know are leaving.
I said
Well if that's how you look at things
Aren't we all on the way out?
Even that baby you hold in your arms
Is put on a countdown
The minute it emerges, covered in goo.
So tell me darling
Exactly in what circumstances
Should I make anything of this relationship?
Or were you just trying to tell me
That everybody is trying to leave ME?

Waste (Seether)

Go unnoticed
Let the freedom wash away
Losing focus
The pretense is second nature
It's a broken life that I cling to
Trying to make right
I feel dismay just like you do
I feel decayed
So find me a way to leave this wasted life
Behind me (this wasted life)
Find me a way to leave this wasted life
Behind me after all this!
Yes I see you
Surrounded by the hopeless
When they need you
You're much too good and bloated
By the hopeless life that you cling to
Try to make right
I feel disdain just like you do
I feel decayed
So find me a way to leave this wasted life
Behind me (this wasted life)
Find me a way to leave this wasted life
Behind me after all
Go away
Go away
And just leave me here
Just leave me here
Just leave me here
So find me a way to leave this wasted life
Behind me (this wasted life)
Find me a way to leave this wasted life
Behind me after all
This wasted life

In Memory (Shinedown)

Some of the ugliest things took the longest time to make
And some of the easiest habits are the hardest ones to break
And I'm not asking for value nor the pain but I am asking
For a way out of this lie
Because I can't wait for you to catch up with me
And I can't live in the past and drown myself in memories
Welcome to nowhere and finding out where it is
And fixing your problems and starting over again
You're feeding your ego with what you can see outside
And you're killing yourself for not speaking your mind
In memory
I wonder why you make believe you live your life straight through me
I cannot understand why you question me and then you lie
I will not justify your ways I cannot show you an escape
I do not know you any more, I never knew you anyway
In memory

If Looks Could Kill (Obscura)

Tell me
Tell me
Tell me where it all went wrong
Maybe I can make it better
Tell me where it all went wrong
Cause you know that you really upset her
When you act like a man who is cross with every woman he’s never had
If it’s true looks could kill then you will be the first to make me mad
Then you've got to go
Maybe you've got to go
Is this the kind of fate you could contemplate
A breakdown at my very sight
I promise hidden words of tenderness in every single line that I write
Still you act like a man who is cross with every woman he’s never had
If it’s true looks could kill and you will be the first to make me mad
Then you got to go
Maybe you’ve got to go
Tell me where it all went wrong
Tell me where it all went wrong
Maybe I can make it better
Tell me where it all went wrong
Tell me where it all went wrong
Still you act like a man who is cross with every woman he’s never had
If it’s true looks could kill and you will be the first to make me mad
Still you act like a man who is cross with every woman he’s never had
If it’s true looks could kill and you will be the first to make me mad
Then you got to go
Maybe you’ve got to go
If it true looks can kill
If it true looks can kill
If it true looks can kill
Yeah it's true looks could kill

Happier (Frenzy)

Quick kid quick, so harsh and cynical
Touches stricken, cold and clinical
What a transformation to behold
But I don't like this new, I want the old
It's not the words that make it final
You've said such things such things before to rival them
But it's how you say 'em now that's changed
Cold but sympathetic all the same
Lie to convince me that I'll be better off
Oh, you go on and I'll be happier, I'll be happier
You go on, yeah, you go on
You'll be gone and I'll be happier
Shoot me with your rubber bullets
Your finger's on the trigger, pull it
I know you want this suffering to end
So it is forgivable my friend
It's all to convince me that I'll be better off
So you go on and I'll be happier,
You go on and I'll be happier
You go on, yeah, you go on
You'll be gone and I'll be happier
Bo-bo-ba-do-bo
Bo-bo-ba-do-bo-da-da-da
Say what you mean, what you mean
Cause you'll be happier without me, without me, without me, oh
You won't convince me, that I'll be better off
So you go on and I'll be happier, I'll be happier
You go on, you go
You'll be gone, and I'll be gone
You go on and I'll be happier, you go on and I'll be happier
You go on, you go on, you go on and I'll go on and I'll be happier
You go on and I'll be happier, you go on and I'll be happier
You go on, and I'll be happier

Only (NIN)

I'm becoming less defined, as days go by
Fading away, well you might say I'm losing focus
Kind of drifting into the abstract in terms of how I see myself
Sometimes, I think I can see right through myself
Sometimes, I think I can see right through myself
Sometimes, I can see right through myself
Less concerned, about fitting into the world
Your world that is, cause it doesn't really matter anymore
No, it doesn't really matter anymore
No, it doesn't really matter anymore
None of this really matters anymore
Yes, I am alone, but then again I always was
As far back as I can tell, I think maybe it's because
Because you were never really real to begin with
I just made you up to hurt myself
I just made you up to hurt myself
Yeah, and I just made you up to hurt myself
I just made you up to hurt myself
Yeah, and I just made you up to hurt myself
And it worked
Yes it did!
There is no you, there is only me
There is no you, there is only me
There is no f*cking you, there is only me
There is no f*cking you, there is only me
Only
When, the tiniest little dot caught my eye
And it turned out to be a scab
And I had this funny feeling
Like I just knew it's something bad
I just couldn't leave it alone
I kept picking at that scab
It was a doorway trying to seal itself shut
But I climbed through
Now I'm somewhere I am not supposed to be
And I can see things I know I really shouldn't see
And now I know why now, now I know why
Things aren't as pretty on the inside
There is no you, there is only me
There is no you, there is only me
There is no f*cking you, there is only me
There is no f*cking you, there is only me
Only

The Letter (Merchant)

If I ever write this letter
The pages I could write
But I don't know where to send it
You have vanished
Heaven knows where you live
Heaven only knows
If I ever write this letter
Bitter words it would contain
Just an unrequited lover
Wishing she had never
Spoken your name
Had never known your name
But if I ever write this letter
The truth it would reveal
Knowing you brought me pleasure
How I'll often treasure
Moments that we knew
The precious, the few

Best I Ever Had (Horizon)

So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring
Nothing's quite the same now
I just say your name now
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't want me back
You're just the best I ever had
So you stole my world
Now I'm just a phony
Remembering the girl
Leaves me down and lonely
Send it in a letter
Make yourself feel better
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't need me back
You're just the best I ever had
And it may take some time to
Patch me up inside
But I can't take it so I
Run away and hide
And I may find in time that
You were always right
You're always right
So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring
What was it you wanted
Could it be I'm haunted
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
I don't want you back
You're just the best I ever had
The best I ever had
The best I ever

Zephyrus (Bloc)

Backwards, forwards but making no ground at all
Standing in the city with the clocks counting one
And your face is still wet from the fight before
As your tears hit the ground, blue flowers spring from them
Baby, I'm ashamed of the things I put you through
Baby, I'm ashamed of the man I was for you
And all you said in your quietest voice
Was "I needed you as much as they do"
How fast must we run before we can just take off in flight?
How far must we run before they do not recognise us?
So let's take this from the start, you'll be me and I'll be you
And let's try not to complain about your smoking
And my distant heart
And my distant heart
And my distant heart
And all you said in your quietest voice
Was "I needed you as much as they do"
(Too many mirrors in this house)
(And I don't like to see myself like this)
(I'm becoming the man I used to be I guess)
(These walls could tell you a thing or two)
(Things that you really don't want to know)
(Lend me your eyes for your point of view)
(Lend me your feet and I'll stand by you)
And all you said in your quietest voice
Was "I needed you as much as they do"


Stolen from Matt, because when I see a line that touches my heart, I add it to my collection of lines on this blog and snort them like cocaine to try and make my brain whole

Faint (Linkin)

I am a little bit of loneliness, a little bit of disregard
Handful of complaints but I can't help the fact
That everybody can see these scars
I am what I want you to want, what I want you to feel
But it's like no matter what I do, I can't convince you
To just believe this is real
So I, let go watching you turn your back like you always do
Face away and pretend that I'm not
But I'll be here cause you're all that I've got
I can't feel the way I did before
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
Time won't heal this damage anymore
Don't turn your back on me I won't be ignored
I am, a little bit insecure, a little unconfident
Cuz you don't understand I do what I can
Sometimes I don't make sense
I am, what you never wanna say, but I've never had a doubt
It's like no matter what I do I can't convince you for once just to hear me out
So I, let go watching you turn your back like you always do
You face away and pretend that I'm not
But I'll be here cause you're all that I've got
I can't feel the way I did before
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
Time won't heal this damage anymore
Don't turn your back on me I won't be ignored
Hear me out now
You're gonna listen to me like it or not
Right now, hear me out now
You're gonna listen to me like it or not
Right now
I can't feel the way I did before
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
I can't feel the way I did before
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
Time won't heal this damage anymore
Don't turn your back on me I won't be ignored
I can't feel
Don't turn your back on me I won't be ignored
Time won't tell
Don't turn your back on me I won't be ignored 

Runaway (Linkin)

Graffiti decorations
Under the sky of dust
A constant wave of tension
On top of broken trust
The lessons that you taught me
I learned were never true
Now I find myself in question
They point the finger at me again
Guilty by association
You point the finger at me again
I wanna run away
Never say goodbye
I wanna know the truth
Instead of wondering why
I wanna know the answers
No more lies
I wanna shut the door
And open up my mind
Paper bags and angry voices
Under a sky of dust
Another wave of tension
Has more than filled me up
All my talk of taking action
These words were never true
I’m gonna run away, and never say goodbye
Gonna run away
I’m gonna run away and never wonder why
Gonna run away
I’m gonna run away and open up my mind
Gonna run away
I wanna run away and open up my mind

A Bad Dream (Keane)

Why do I have to fly
over every town up and down the line?
I'll die in the clouds above
and you that I defend, I do not love.
I wake up, it's a bad dream,
No one on my side,
I was fighting
But I just feel too tired
to be fighting,
guess I'm not the fighting kind.
Where will I meet my fate?
Baby I'm a man, I was born to hate.
And when will I meet my end?
In a better time you could be my friend.
I wake up, it's a bad dream,
No one on my side,
I was fighting
But I just feel too tired
to be fighting,
guess I'm not the fighting kind.
Wouldn't mind it
if you were by my side
But you're long gone,
yeah you're long gone now.
Where do we go?
I don't even know,
My strange old face,
And I'm thinking about those days,
And I'm thinking about those days.
I wake up, it's a bad dream,
No one on my side,
I was fighting
But I just feel too tired
to be fighting,
guess I'm not the fighting kind.
Wouldn't mind it
if you were by my side
But you're long gone,
yeah you're long gone now.

Beth Orton meets my childhood

It can be said
"We only hurt the ones we love,"
And that is true.
Others may harm us
But if they don't love us
Or we them
'Tis but a scratch, a sting.
But those we love
If they cause us harm
'Tis a mortal blow,
Sometimes a fatal wound.
So while I may be able
To absolve Little Miss Chatterbox
Or ignore Little Miss Nosy
Or laugh at Little Miss Bossy
It is Little Miss Sunshine
Who breaks my heart
Into a million pieces
Because she was the one
Who had brought Light
Into my world, i.e. Love.
And when she hurt me
T'was a mortal wound
A fatal blow
She didn't need a reason.

Pansies

There is so much more to life than you
Though you cloud my every thought
Manipulate my every move.
You know how to say just the right thing
To everyone else
You make it abundantly clear whom you love
I am stuck over here in freak land
In a torture room of my own making
I'd like to ask someone for help
To stop loving a person instantaneously
But you are the supreme expert on the subject
And we're not talking.
We're both at this point
Where we have nothing to lose
Because I am incapable of hurting you
The way you have hurt me
And you're incapable of feeling feelings
You self-centered shrew.
Even though I hate you
I wish I could be just like you
And forget I ever knew you
Like you do to me.
But oh if only you read my words
And came running back to me!
Because really, I haven't tortured myself enough
And I would so love a Round 2 with you
Gawd, I see how pathetic I am
You've always known it though
That's just what makes you so freakin great.

Swallowed (Bush)

Warm sun, feed me up and I'm leery loaded up
Loathing for a change
And I slip some boil away
Swallowed followed, heavy about everything
But my love
Swallowed sorrowed
I'm with everyone and yet not just wanted
to be myself
hey you said that you would love to try some
hey you said you would love to die some
in the middle of a worm on a fish hook
you're the wave you're the wave you're the wave
Swallowed borrowed
Heavy about everything
But my love
Swallowed hollowed
Sharp about everyone
But yourself
Swallowed oh no
I'm with every one and yet not
I'm with everyone and you're not
I'm on everyone and yet
Piss on self-esteem
Forward Busted knee
Sick head
Blackened lungs
And I'm a simple selfish son
Swallowed followed
Swallowed oh no
I'm with everyone and yet not
Got to get away from here
I miss the one that I love a lot
I miss the one that I love a lot 

Lost (Korn)

Why can't I decide why my feelings I hide?
Always screwing with my mind, a thorn in my spine.
Oh sure, it feels fine, wasting all our time.
In the back of my mind, a thorn in my spine.
Wait! See it before my eyes.
Why? Do I turn away?
Looking all the time, at your face so blind.
Feeling uptight, always the same fight.
Hey man now decide, go ahead take your time.
Kissing all the time, that thorn in my spine.
Wait! You cannot see inside
Why! Play yourself out that way
Why! You and me always hate
Wait! Weren't you my friend?
Pain, Rage and Fear I feel!
Hey man look inside, now you need your own life.
Remember me guy? That thorn in your spine.
Waiting all the time, I'm doing mighty fine.
Remember me guy? The thorn in your spine.
Wait! You cannot see inside.
Why? Play yourself out that way
Why? You and me always hate
Wait! Weren't you my friend
Wait! You were my friend.

Untitled

Too much noise inside my brain
Can't think, can't blink
Just when I think I've figured out the answers
My heart starts bleeding again
No tourniquet in sight; only more knives.
I wish you weren't left out of reach
But there are tears whether you're near or far.
I've brought this on myself?  No.
You have all brought it on me against my will
All I have ever wanted was happiness, contentment
Lo and behold I've found it
And then you all have to rip it away again.
How to pass the hours each day
That's all we need to know
If we can't figure that out now
What makes us think
We'll figure it out in the next life?
Can there be no good without evil?
You're the cause of darkness, in my soul
Otherwise I am a sunrise
Full of potential without you.

Welcome to the Black Parade (MCR)

When I was a young boy,
My father took me into the city
To see a marching band.
He said, "Son when you grow up,
would you be the saviour of the broken,
the beaten and the damned?"
He said "Will you defeat them,
your demons, and all the non-believers,
the plans that they have made?
Because one day I'll leave you,
A phantom to lead you in the summer,
To join The Black Parade."
When I was a young boy,
My father took me into the city
To see a marching band.
He said, "Son when you grow up,
would you be the saviour of the broken,
the beaten and the damned?"
Sometimes I get the feeling she's watching over me.
And other times I feel like I should go.
And through it all, the rise and fall, the bodies in the streets.
And when you're gone we want you all to know.
We'll carry on,
We'll carry on
And though you're dead and gone believe me
Your memory will carry on
We'll carry on
And in my heart I can't contain it
The anthem won't explain it.
A world that sends you reeling from decimated dreams
Your misery and hate will kill us all.
So paint it black and take it back
Let's shout it loud and clear
Defiant to the end we hear the call
To carry on
We'll carry on
And though you're dead and gone believe me
Your memory will carry on
We'll carry on
And though you're broken and defeated
Your weary widow marches
On and on we carry through the fears
Ooh oh ohhhh
Disappointed faces of your peers
Ooh oh ohhhh
Take a look at me cause I could not care at all
Do or die, you'll never make me
Because the world will never take my heart
Go and try, you'll never break me
We want it all, we wanna play this part
I won't explain or say I'm sorry
I'm unashamed, I'm gonna show my scar
Give a cheer for all the broken
Listen here, because it's who we are
I'm just a man, I'm not a hero
Just a boy, who had to sing this song
I'm just a man, I'm not a hero
I! don't! care!
We'll carry on
We'll carry on
And though you're dead and gone believe me
Your memory will carry on
We'll carry on
And though you're broken and defeated
Your weary widow marches on
Do or die, you'll never make me
Because the world will never take my heart
Go and try, you'll never break me
We want it all, we wanna play this part (We'll carry on)
Do or die, you'll never make me (We'll carry on)
Because the world will never take my heart (We'll carry on)
Go and try, you'll never break me (We'll carry)
We want it all, we wanna play this part (We'll carry on)

We Used To Talk (Stranger)

We used to talk
Enough to fill an ocean full of sailors 
who were going to some undiscovered place
And we talked
about a storm that's growing
but we'd survive it knowing 
we'd keep each other safe
Like the waves that wash away the footprints on the shore
We used to talk a lot
but we don't talk much anymore
We used to talk
enough to fill a million books
with page after page of inspirational thought
And we talked
about all the scenarios 
where we could be the heroes
avenging evil plots
It's what we don't expect and what we choose to ignore
We used to talk a lot
but we don't talk much anymore
How long
can these conversations go on
before the inspiration is gone?
Even Atlantis sunk into the ocean floor
We used to talk a lot
but we don't talk much anymore
We used to talk
how in a hundred years
we would still be sitting here
just chattering our bones
But we're not
I'm sitting here in silence 
and though I have tried
it is hard to talk alone... 

Savior (Rise)

It kills me not to know this but I've all but just forgotten
What the color of her eyes were 
and her scars or how she got them
As the telling signs of age rain down a single tear is dropping
Through the valleys of an aging face that this world has forgotten
There is no reconciliation that will put me in my place
And there is no time like the present to drink these draining seconds
But seldom do these words ring true when I'm constantly failing you
Like walls that we just can't break through until we disappear
So tell me now
If this ain't love then how do we get out?
cause' I don't know
That's when she said I don't hate you boy
I just want to save you while there's still something left to save
That's when I told her I love you girl
But I'm not the answer for the questions that you still have
But the day pressed on like crushing weights
For no man does it ever wait
Like memories of dying days
That deafen us like hurricanes
Bathed in flames we held the brand
Uncurled the fingers in your hand
Pressed into the flesh like sand
Now do you understand?
So tell me now
If this ain't love then how do we get out?
cause' I don't know
That's when she said I don't hate you boy
I just want to save you while there's still something left to save
That's when I told her I love you girl
But I'm not the answer for the questions that you still have
1000 miles away
There's nothing left to say
But so much left that I don't know
We never had a choice
This world is too much noise
It takes me under
It takes me under once again
I don't hate you
I don't hate you
So tell me now
If this ain't love then how do we get out?
cause' I don't know
That's when she said I don't hate you boy
I just want to save you while there's still something left to save
That's when I told her I love you girl
But I'm not the answer for the questions that you still have
I don't hate you
I don't hate you, no

Random Beach Verses Part Tres

Last time I was on this beach
You broke my heart
I drank wine and went
Antiquing, swearing
To never give a damn about you
   again
But you have made a fool of me
   again
Already history is repeating?
Already it's time for another feeding?

Random Beach Verses Part Deux

The last time I was here there was a north wind
Is that symbolic for the jet stream
Carrying thoughts of you down to me
Why can't we be who we really are
Or at least stop trying to be
I guess the distance makes storytellers of us both
Your north wind is prickly on my pores
Has a cleansing effect on my thoughts
A cold shower on a hot day

The longer I stay here
The wind has changed

Everyone here not from Britain
Is from New Amsterdam

Random Beach Verses Part I

Every creation myth needs a devil
"And it's the devil I love.
That's as funny as real love
And that's as real as true love."

All we want is someone to grow old with
Someone to do all the stuff with
We deceive ourselves into thinking
That we really want what we can't have
Sometimes we get it
We're more alone than before

That other-sex version of ourselves
In the living room mirror
Is what our heart wants
Though the groin tries to lie.

The devil I love is the
Story woven by the groin
Up the bloodstream to the brain.
The devil of creation
Has a name but is nameless
It is just what we want
But can't have.

Outro With Bees (Case)

How's hope feeling today
Tired and sick of this place
Red wine is fast
At the lip of your glass
Saying I'm going to ruin
Everything
Everything
So its better my sweet
That we hover like bees
'Cause there's no sure footing
No love, I believe 

Home (Sharpe)

Her:

Alabama, Arkansas

I do love my ma and pa

Not that way that I do love you

Him:

Holy moly, me oh my

You're the apple of my eye

Girl, I've never loved no one like you

Her:

Man, oh man, you're my best friend

I scream it to the nothingness

There ain't nothing that I need

Him:

Well, hot and heavy, pumpkin pie

Chocolate candy, Jesus Christ

Ain't nothing please me more than you

Both:

Ah, home

Let me go home

Home is wherever I'm with you

Ah, home

Let me go home

Home is wherever I'm with you

La, la, la, la, take me home

Mother, I'm coming home

Him:

I'll follow you into the park

Through the jungle, through the dark

Girl, I never loved no one like you

Her:

Moats and boats and waterfalls

Alleyways and pay phone calls

I've been everywhere with you

Him:

That's true

Laugh until we think we'll die

Barefoot on a summer night

Never could be sweeter than with you

Her:

And in the streets you run a-free

Like it's only you and me

Geez, you're something to see

Both:

Ah, home

Let me go home

Home is wherever I'm with you

Ah, home

Let me go home

Home is wherever I'm with you

La, la, la, la, take me home

Daddy, I'm coming home

(talking)

Him: Jade

Her: Alexander

Him: Do you remember that day you fell out of my window?

Her: I sure do, you came jumping out after me

Him: Well, you fell on the concrete, nearly broke your ass, you were bleeding all over the place and I rushed you out to the hospital, you remember that?

Her: Yes, I do

Him: Well, there's something I never told you about that night

Her: What didn't you tell me?

Him: While you were sitting in the backseat smoking a cigarette you thought was going to be your last, I was falling deep, deeply in love with you, and I never told you until just now

Both:

Ah, home

Let me go home

Home is wherever I'm with you

Ah, home

Let me go home

Home is where I'm alone with you

Him:

Home

Let me come home

Home is wherever I'm with you

Her:

Ah, home

Yes I am home

Home is when I'm alone with you

Her:

Alabama, Arkansas

I do love my ma and pa

Moats and boats and waterfalls

Alleyways and pay phone calls

Both:

Ah, home

Let me go home

Home is wherever I'm with you

Ah, home

Let me go home

Home is where I'm alone with you     

...for my valentine

Head Over Feet (Morissette)

I had no choice but to hear you

You stated your case time and again

I thought about it

You treat me like I'm a princess

I'm not used to liking that

You ask how my day was

You've already won me over in spite of me

Don't be alarmed if I fall head over feet

And don't be surprised if I love you for all that you are

I couldn't help it

It's all your fault

Your love is thick and it swallowed me whole

You're so much braver than I gave you credit for

That's not lip service

You've already won me over in spite of me

Don't be alarmed if I fall head over feet

And don't be surprised if I love you for all that you are

I couldn't help it

It's all your fault

You are the bearer of unconditional things

You held your breath and the door for me

Thanks for your patience

You're the best listener that I've ever met

You're my best friend

Best friend with benefits

What took me so long

I've never felt this healthy before

I've never wanted something rational

I am aware now

I am aware now

You've already won me over in spite of me

Don't be alarmed if I fall head over feet

And don't be surprised if I love you for all that you are

I couldn't help it

It's all your fault 

...for my valentine         

Pale September (Apple)

Pale September, I wore the time like a dress that year

The autumn days swung soft around me, like cotton on my skin

But as the embers of the summer lost their breath and disappeared

My heart went cold and only hollow rhythms resounded from within

But then he rose, brilliant as the moon in full

And sank in the burrows of my keep

And all my armor falling down, in a pile at my feet

And my winter giving way to warm, as I'm singing him to sleep

He goes along just as a water lily

Gentle on the surface of his thoughts his body floats

Unweighed down by passion or intensity

Yet unaware of the depth upon which he coasts

And he finds a home in me

For what misfortune sows, he knows my touch will reap

And all my armor falling down, in a pile at my feet

And my winter giving way to warm, as I'm singing him to sleep

All my armor falling down, in a pile at my feet

And my winter giving way to warm, as I'm singing him to sleep

All my armor falling down, in a pile at my feet

And my winter giving way to warm, as I'm singing him to sleep

...for my valentine

Sanctified (Reznor)

it's still getting worse after everything i tried
what if i found a way to wash it all aside
what if she touches with those fingertips
as the words spill out like fire from her lips
if she says come inside i'll come inside for her
if she says give it all i'll give everything to her
i am justified
i am purified
i am sanctified
inside you
heaven's just a rumor she'll dispel
as she walks me through the nicest parts of hell
i still dream of lips i never should have never kissed
well she knows exactly what i can't resist
if she says come inside i'll come inside for her
if she says give it all i'll give everything to her
i am justified
i am purified
i am sanctified
inside you
i'm just caught up in another of her spells
she's turning me into someone else
everyday i hope and pray this will end
but when i can i do it all again
if she says come inside i'll come inside for her
if she says give it all i'll give everything to her
i am justified
i am purified
i am sanctified
inside you
as surely as the blades course is run
maybe my kingdom's finally come

The Kill (Leto)

What if I wanted to break
Laugh it all off in your face
What would you do?
What if I fell to the floor?
Couldn't take this anymore
What would you do?
Come break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you
What if I wanted to fight
Beg for the rest of my life
What would you do?
You say you wanted more
What are you waiting for?
I'm not running from you
Come break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you
Look in my eyes
You're killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you
I tried to be someone else
But nothing seemed to change
I know now, this is who I really am inside
Finally found myself
Fighting for a chance
I know now, this is who I really am
Come break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you
Look in my eyes
You're killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you
Come break me down
Break me down
Break me down
What if I wanted to break?

Untitled

I want to be mad at you
I want to say it's all your fault
Just when I thought it was safe
To put my heart on the line
You proved me wrong.
But then the part of me
That isn't corrupted, rusted
Wants to give you the benefit of the doubt
Wants to applaud your ability
To see right through me.
You want to talk about conflict?
There it is, babe
With a big freakin bow on it.

Tucson To Sean

God, I want to get out there
I want to be in the middle of it all
I want to read volumes in the coffeehouse
I want to have Camera Obscura in my ear
I want to write a poem at every stoplight
I want to be able to think thoughts
   and not say them
I want to have something hidden
   behind my eyes
I want to read Camus and love it
I want to be working on a novel
I want to be sought out
I want to be profound
I want this to be me.

Brother Love's Traveling Salvation Show (Diamond)

Hot August night
And the leaves hanging down
And the grass on the ground smelling sweet
Move up the road
To the outside of town
And the sound of that good gospel beat
Sits a ragged tent
Where there ain't no trees
And that gospel group
Telling you and me
It's Love, Brother Love, say
Brother Love's Traveling Salvation Show (halle, halle)
Pack up the babies
And grab the old ladies
And everyone goes
'Cause everyone knows
Brother Love's show
Room gets suddenly still
And when you'd almost bet
You could hear yourself sweat, he walks in
Eyes black as coal
And when he lifts his face
Every ear in the place is on him
Starting soft and slow
Like a small earthquake
And when he lets go
Half the valley shakes
It's Love, Brother Love, say
Brother Love's Traveling Salvation Show (halle, halle)
Pack up the babies
And grab the old ladies
And everyone goes
'Cause everyone knows
'Bout Brother Love's show
(hallelujah)

Brothers! (halle hallelujah)
I say brothers! (hallelujah)
Now you got yourself
Two good hands (halle hallelujah)
And when your brother is troubled
You got to reach out your one hand for him (hallelujah)
'Cause that's what it's there for (halle hallelujah)
And when your heart is troubled
You gotta reach out your other hand (hallelujah)
Reach it out to the Man up there
'Cause that's what He's there for (halle hallelujah)
Take my hand in yours
Walk with me this day
In my heart I know
I will never stray
Halle, halle, halle, halle, halle, halle, halle halle

Love, Brother Love,
Say Brother Love's Traveling Salvation Show
Pack up the babies
And grab the old ladies
And everyone goes
I say Love, Brother Love,
Say Brother Love's Traveling Salvation Show
Pack up the babies
And grab the old ladies
And everyone goes


...this one was for PopPop